I only want what's best for you!!!!

Well it's been one heck of a week and man am I wore out too! Things have been somewhat hectic at work with 23rd street opening back up. With them opening today we also had a visit from home office peeps. Ugh....I am glad it is over now we can all calm back down and have realistic time to get things done in again.
On a happy note I lost three pounds this week and another 1/2 inch in my boobs. But sadly the 38 DD bra I bought still doesn't fit. So apparently my cup hasn't changed so I am in the process of figuring out how big the girls are. How annoying I hate bra shopping but you gotta have a good sling for you things. :) It's hard not to waste money on clothes. Even my 13 jeans I just bought are starting to get baggy in the butt. I am going to try and wash them in some hot water in hopes they will shrink some. It can't hurt right?

My biggest stress right now is my house which is always a stress for me. I think it's why we go out so much because we hate our house. Cleaning it up is one thing but we are in the process of a remodel an on going seven year nightmare. Oh course someone told me today there sister is in an 18 year remodel. lol I thought I had it bad!

On another topic I cheated! Yep I cheated and I loved it. Okay I felt a bit bad for doing it. What did I cheat on you ask? Well I had fajita I only ate two flour tortilla I didn't have beans or rice but I did have a bit of sour cream and some cheese oh and of course cooked onions! They were so good too and right now I am cheating again with a small cup of panera brocolli soup it is soooooo yummy but no bread. I can't be that bad. These things are probably going to wreck my system my stomach has been a bit off. I blame it on work with all the added stress. But what you eat can affect your whole body.

Now to get to what this blog is all about EXCUSES.....you know who you are. I have been praying for you and I want you to be healthy and not have all the pain. It's $90 a week when you stop drinking those nasty ass sodas you can afford this plan. I want you to be a grandma and great grandma but at the rate you are going you may not make it. I want you to wake up and thank God but I want you to thank God first for having your health. I know you don't thank him for that because you don't have good health. You're falling apart and every Dr. keeps telling you the same thing I am. LOSE WEIGHT!!! You know the system works you see me and how good I am doing. I am so far from perfect on the system I hiccup here and there but that's what Jennifer is for. You have met her she could see the pain on your face. I love you and I only want what's best for all my best friends. I am praying for you to make the final step. If you need a hand I am there you know that. So this ends my blog for this week. I love you all and wish you all would get healthy you know who you are!!!!!

Oh WOW!!!!!!

This week at weigh in was a total shock. The day before we went to a friends house who made us steaks on the grill with asparagus. Accidently he added too much smoke and the steaks and asparagus were very smokey tasting. Which in turn made my stomach very upset and I had gas too. So driving Monday into my appointment I figured there was no way I had lost anything. If I had it wouldn't show and my gas would make me bloated. I never expect to lose as much as I lose every week. I try very hard to stay off the scales at home.Jennifer my nutritionist keeps telling me that I should only weight in once a week and at the same time.Our bodies change from day to day. Some days we have more water than others and if we constantly look at the scale everyday we would definately stop losing weight. Main reason because we would be disappointed in the amount we gain. Amazing how one pound can rail road you into thinking you are a failure but it is rough starting a diet and even harder to stick too it.
One of the things I still struggle with is stress. Stress brings on my bing eatting and on this diet I have no room for cheating AT ALL! So my cheat which I haven't told my Nutrionist about is my sugar free candy. I am very careful not to eat more than the package says is a serving. Besides if you have ever tried sugar free candy you would know if you eat more than what a serving is like oh say a whole bag you will have the worst case of RUNS and will wish you were dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Think I am kidding go ahead have a whole bag of reese sugar free cups and you will have to call in to work for several days. Possibly call a plumber as your sewer backs up. Okay maybe not that bad but seriously it is a bad idea. You have been warned!!!!!!
Okay so I walk in the back to be weighed and like I said I didn't expect good numbers. Jennifer took the large weight and moved it from the 200 lbs to the 150 lbs spot and readjusted the top scale. I just about died. It was like an even bigger weight had been taken off my shoulders. Like all my hard work was finally starting to show. Even though I know it shows because everyone keeps reminding me with heart felt kind words and encouragement. Ya'll really are awesome. It has finally set in just how awesome I am doing on this diet. I am also excited to say in large print too that I am now UNDER 200 LBS!!!!!! I want to shout it from the roof tops. Dance around like an idiot. It makes me smile that I hit my first goal. I have never been able to reach any of the goals I have set for myself until now and I feel like I could take on the world now. Now I am at 198 lbs and I have only 48 lbs to reach my goal weight of 150lbs. At the rate I am losing I will be able to wear a bikini by spring break. I can't wait to visit my mom in April I plan on surprizing her can't disclose all the details but it will be awesome. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Clearing out the clutter

Happy New Year!!! Yeah I know a bit late on the blog but I have been busy. I know I know excuses but really I haven't had time to sit and relax enough for my thoughts to come out. Actually right now I am having trouble getting them to come forth but I will blah blah through it. :) It's been rough with the holidays I was a good girl and didn't have anything I wasn't supposed too. But I am still to this day missing all the fried food that I find comforting. I know I am not supposed to find comfort in food but it's hard to reprogram yourself. I grew up eating pizza my mom was a single parent. She worked long tiring hours at work and then came home to us kids who were hungry .There was never any food in my house growing up. Well not real food. We had ramen noodles and mac and cheese maybe some bologna. I remember summers being filled with bbq spam and white bread. I used to eat bread with sugar on top of it and throw it back with a ice cold two liter of coke. No wonder I got so big lol. So breaking these habits of eating wrong is very difficult for me. I really have to focus on my goal and in school they don't teach you how to set a goal and to reach it. You just have to do it and it is hard ya'll.
 Baby steps baby steps. So when people ask me how much you have lost I say I am half way to my goal. My goal is 100 lbs. I have a little less than three months to achieve the rest of my goal. I plan on seeing my mom and brother at the beginning of April my birthday and I plan on having a big slice of cake and some ice cream which I miss so much :). Of course I can plan all I want it's up to God. I really hope it all happens like I want because I miss my mom and brother and niece like crazy. It's been almost three years since I have seen them. Even if I don't meet my goal I am still seeing my mom I just won't get cake to go with it lol.
On another note I have been going thru my closet and having a wide collect of clothes that are in need of a new home. Size 22 and 20 pants. I have a suit also size 20. Lots of cute still in style tops and even a pair of bell bottoms with fur on them! It's real fur too! I want to give these to someone I know to wear. If interested message me on facebook.
53 pounds to go!!!!!! Love ya'll will try harder this year to keep this blog updated but I can't make any promises. ;)