My lucky number is 7!

Wow is all I can say after having a horrible week of me beating myself up. Apparently in that beating I burned some fat. To be exact 7 POUNDS! I lost 3 INCHES!!! WOO HOO go me go me!!! I stuck to my diet and found out a combination of cheese and creamer were my problem. Needless to say who wants some flavored creamer cups I have half a box left its almond joy flavor they are awesome and have 6 carbs in each tiny cup!!! Seriously 6 carbs in that ity bity little cup!!! The cheese was me slightly cheating. I can only have 1 ounce of milk a day that includes cheese. I know it isn't much and that's because it is loaded with fat. I get my calcium from my supplements I take every morning. So no creamer in my coffee bummer :(

On another happy note this week is Thanksgiving. One of the hardest weeks. Think of me when you enjoy your sweet potatoes, dinner rolls, and pie. I will be having Turkey and Ham and salad with califlower mashed with mushroom soup gravy, Zuccuni and that's about it. I won't starve I won't feel like I ate too much I won't fall asleep or go into a coma from eatting all the sugar and fat that you will be eatting. This makes me happy it really does. I am proud of my progress.

Let's review: Beginning weight 256 LBS. Weigh in today 217LBS. That's a totally of 39LBS!!!!
Almost 40LBS LOST and it shows in my butt none of my clothes fit. I raided my closet going through all my old clothes making a box to bring to Walmart for my peeps that need work clothes. I had old clothes that I bought or had shrunk that I hadn't thrown out yet. I jokingly tired them on and they fit. They fit nicely so I wore my old favorite shirt to church. Today I wore my other shirt which is black with my black shorts that have a draw string. The shorts don't fit me they are so baggy but the shirt hid that kind of :) I feel better and can't let little hiccups affect me. I thank everyone that has been praying for me. Without your support and love I wouldn't be able to accomplish this. To think in a month I won't weigh in in the 200s wow is all I can say wow! Until next time Happy Thanksgiving everyone LOVE YA!!!!

I NEED HELP!!!!

I love to look back at my old post and see how hopeless I was by myself. God has a funny way of making us see that we truely aren't in this alone. He never meant for us to be that's why everyone has problems. Mine was and it truely still is asking for help. I wish I would've done more of it in school. I am very smart when things are explained to me so that I can understand them. I was terrified of math but if it was explained to me and broken down bit by bit I usually could figure it out. I guess I just feel like I am wasting peoples time or something. I don't want to interupt them with my silly question. Well guess what I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep this diet is a group effort. I can't do it alone and I need support and lots of it. I feel like I am being selfish but I know that I am not. I need prayers I need I need :) I had a horrible week last week and started to think maybe I should just quit this diet. It costs alot and I can't go out to eat I can't have Thanksgiving dinner like I want too. What's the point! This isn't just about me getting pregnant this is about me getting healthy and off this medication. I don't want to be a diabetic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to be sick and tired all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to feel better about me and feel better inside!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just because I want but I need too. God wants it for me and he knows I can do it. So why am I thinking I can't? 

So I am taking a long look at my whole self. Sometimes we have to refocus on our goals to meet them. My goal weight is 150 pounds. I started off at 256 pounds now I am at 223 pounds. I have 73 pounds too lose. So who wants to help me lose 73 pounds??? I can't afford to have another bad week like I had last week. I need prayers I go back to the Dr. on the 2nd of December. I am praying I am taken off my metformin and the only pills I take are my vitamins. I want to thank you as always for reading my blog and thank you for being such great friends. I truely couldn't do this without you.