I NEED HELP!!!!

I love to look back at my old post and see how hopeless I was by myself. God has a funny way of making us see that we truely aren't in this alone. He never meant for us to be that's why everyone has problems. Mine was and it truely still is asking for help. I wish I would've done more of it in school. I am very smart when things are explained to me so that I can understand them. I was terrified of math but if it was explained to me and broken down bit by bit I usually could figure it out. I guess I just feel like I am wasting peoples time or something. I don't want to interupt them with my silly question. Well guess what I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep this diet is a group effort. I can't do it alone and I need support and lots of it. I feel like I am being selfish but I know that I am not. I need prayers I need I need :) I had a horrible week last week and started to think maybe I should just quit this diet. It costs alot and I can't go out to eat I can't have Thanksgiving dinner like I want too. What's the point! This isn't just about me getting pregnant this is about me getting healthy and off this medication. I don't want to be a diabetic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to be sick and tired all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to feel better about me and feel better inside!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just because I want but I need too. God wants it for me and he knows I can do it. So why am I thinking I can't? 

So I am taking a long look at my whole self. Sometimes we have to refocus on our goals to meet them. My goal weight is 150 pounds. I started off at 256 pounds now I am at 223 pounds. I have 73 pounds too lose. So who wants to help me lose 73 pounds??? I can't afford to have another bad week like I had last week. I need prayers I go back to the Dr. on the 2nd of December. I am praying I am taken off my metformin and the only pills I take are my vitamins. I want to thank you as always for reading my blog and thank you for being such great friends. I truely couldn't do this without you.