Loose in my caboose.

Yep my butt is disappearing. Last week was a bad week. I now understand why my Dr. is keeping me on Metformin. I am NOT diabetic by any means. I have a fasting blood sugar of 80 that is normal. What I do have a problem with is fat. Our pancreas is what makes fat. So by taking Metformin my pancreas is getting a nice break. And with the diet I am on it is really getting a nice vacation actually. So the Metformin is a diet aid. :) I stressed out about it so much I raised my blood pressure. That the Dr. was not happy about and I am working harder to not get upset over stupid stuff. Unfortunately if I can worry about it I will. It's in my nature. It's something I am working hard to stop doing.

But enough stress talk lets talk about Monday. Five pounds down 1/2 inch in my boobs 1/2 inch in my waist and 1/2 in my thigh. Arms still the same they are going to be the hardest to get rid of. That means............DRUM ROLL PLEASE 49 pounds LOST!!!! That being said I am now officially at the half way point. 57 more pounds to go to reach 150 pounds. I am planning on visiting my mom in April and I am going to be my goal weight by then come hell or high water!!!! No cheating allowed this coming week is going to be rough. But I have will power. Tomorrow night I plan on making a coconut cake and not eatting it. Which is hard since I have never attempted this recipe and I like to try them out before serving them. So to my family I hope the cake tastes good. I found the recipe on pinterest so I really hope it is a home run and not a knock out. :)

Also today I bought a pair of 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay I am excited but I haven't tried them on yet but I am almost sure that they will fit and on the same note all my old clothes are still to be gone thru. I am lazy. Well that and for some reason I still think of myself as large. Like I am going to fall backwards. That and I love my clothes. I have very pretty clothes and spent a good bit of money on them. It's hard to say goodbye to the old me. I know clothes don't define me but it's hard to say goodbye to what you are comfortable in. So with that being said I probably need to go thru those clothes after church Sunday. No excuses and you can hold me to it! :) Merry Christmas everybody love ya!!! <3

Not the news I was looking for :(

Well last week I had my blood work done and I was truely hoping and praying that I wouldn't have to take the metformin I am on any longer. That I could just go back to being healthy without taking pills to make me that way. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am having a difficult time reminding myself that my appointment didn't go that bad. I mean it did and it didn't first off I gained two pounds :-/ still not sure exactly how that happened so I am blaming it on my period oh and Chris lol. No really it's his fault he was pissed that I didn't have a bowl of his chilli he made especially for me I tried to tell him I can't have tomato sauce but he only heard half of what I said. He figured since it didn't have beans I could eat it. Then he got quite pissed when I told him after he had made a huge pot of it that I still couldn't eat it. So I had a bowl! Just to make him happy. Then we went over to see his grandmother whos 80th birthday was yesterday and I had a bite of pineapple cake. I mean a tiny bite. But I will admit eariler in the week I had cheese wrapped in Prosciutto my weakness. But other than those I was an angel. Dr. Lubin she couldn't say how happy she was that my numbers have improved. Everything is fabulous. I asked her then why am I still having to take metformin and she said until I reach my goal weight I need to stay on metformin. It is actually helping me lose weight by giving my pancreas a needed break. I then asked her if this means I am diabetic and she said no I am not diabetic but if I continued on the path I was taking by being so fat and eatting incorrectly I would most certainly be a diabetic. Metformin is helping me burn fat by fixing my metabolic problems. She then told me I should take advantage of the medical services available to me. Apparently I get a free foot exam and eye exam in my preventative care. :( I don't want to go back to the foot dr. I don't have feet problems anymore and my eyes are just fine. UGH......for not being diabetic she sure made me feel like I am.
Well I got reemed by Jennifer for gaining two pounds and had to do another ketones test and I was completely negative which isn't good. I somehow also got bigger in my legs by over an inch. I tried to tell her I have been doing a lot of running on the treadmill but she said it was because I am holding water from eating carbs.  I left the Dr. office today feeling defeated and let down. All my hard work for nothing. So instead of just going home and suffering alone with my dogs I decided to spend the day with my mother in law. It was the best thing I could've done. We laughed we cried we shopped till I just about dropped. We had a heart to heart conversation in the car on the way to Destin one that I think we both really needed. With all the stress of family and work pileing on top of us it felt good to talk about it all. Now I know a lot of you are thinking oh no don't quit Eve you're doing so good. I am not quitting. I am going to continue I have a goal of 100 Lbs by the end of March and I am going to do it. I am almost to my half way point. So I had a little set back. This just means I have to work even harder. I know I can do it look how far I have come.