Well last week I had my blood work done and I was truely hoping and praying that I wouldn't have to take the metformin I am on any longer. That I could just go back to being healthy without taking pills to make me that way. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am having a difficult time reminding myself that my appointment didn't go that bad. I mean it did and it didn't first off I gained two pounds :-/ still not sure exactly how that happened so I am blaming it on my period oh and Chris lol. No really it's his fault he was pissed that I didn't have a bowl of his chilli he made especially for me I tried to tell him I can't have tomato sauce but he only heard half of what I said. He figured since it didn't have beans I could eat it. Then he got quite pissed when I told him after he had made a huge pot of it that I still couldn't eat it. So I had a bowl! Just to make him happy. Then we went over to see his grandmother whos 80th birthday was yesterday and I had a bite of pineapple cake. I mean a tiny bite. But I will admit eariler in the week I had cheese wrapped in Prosciutto my weakness. But other than those I was an angel. Dr. Lubin she couldn't say how happy she was that my numbers have improved. Everything is fabulous. I asked her then why am I still having to take metformin and she said until I reach my goal weight I need to stay on metformin. It is actually helping me lose weight by giving my pancreas a needed break. I then asked her if this means I am diabetic and she said no I am not diabetic but if I continued on the path I was taking by being so fat and eatting incorrectly I would most certainly be a diabetic. Metformin is helping me burn fat by fixing my metabolic problems. She then told me I should take advantage of the medical services available to me. Apparently I get a free foot exam and eye exam in my preventative care. :( I don't want to go back to the foot dr. I don't have feet problems anymore and my eyes are just fine. UGH......for not being diabetic she sure made me feel like I am.
Well I got reemed by Jennifer for gaining two pounds and had to do another ketones test and I was completely negative which isn't good. I somehow also got bigger in my legs by over an inch. I tried to tell her I have been doing a lot of running on the treadmill but she said it was because I am holding water from eating carbs. I left the Dr. office today feeling defeated and let down. All my hard work for nothing. So instead of just going home and suffering alone with my dogs I decided to spend the day with my mother in law. It was the best thing I could've done. We laughed we cried we shopped till I just about dropped. We had a heart to heart conversation in the car on the way to Destin one that I think we both really needed. With all the stress of family and work pileing on top of us it felt good to talk about it all. Now I know a lot of you are thinking oh no don't quit Eve you're doing so good. I am not quitting. I am going to continue I have a goal of 100 Lbs by the end of March and I am going to do it. I am almost to my half way point. So I had a little set back. This just means I have to work even harder. I know I can do it look how far I have come.
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