This is the hardest blog I have written. I wish I could say I have the best news ever but that ended Sunday morning. God had other plans. I miscarried it was quick I was only pregnant that I knew of for two days. Two wonderful days. I had no energy I didn't feel like myself and I was posting it all on Facebook and I just thought I was tired from all the emotional and financial decisions that my husband and I needed to make.
I keep remembering the visit with the Dr. now when asked if I had ever been pregnant I said no. It was the truth to think as I sat there I was pregnant. The weird feeling in the waiting room was my baby's cells being divided. The knots in my stomach were my body responding to the pregnancy.
I have cried and it still upsets me. I just have to pray the next time it sticks and is healthy.
Knowing my tube isn't blocked is one happy thought. I can get pregnant! This isn't the end of my story. This is just the beginning. I can't wait to start trying again.
I have another appointment to see my Dr. It's on the 18th. I have plenty of things to ask him and pray I don't need medication to carry a baby full term. I pray this next cycle is the one. I want to be pregnant before the new year. Silly goal but I have the most awesome prayer team. You know who you are. I feel so blessed to have you in my life. I would be a total basket case without you. Well I will keep you updated but hopefully my next blog will bring wonderful news. Love you all.
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